He Says I Have Freedom
There are many things in my life that I have both needed freedom, and that God has released me from. The thing that has held me most captive has been the belief that I am who people have said I am.
Repeatedly throughout my life I have been told that; I’m lazy, I am not good enough, I cannot be what others need me to be, and I must keep striving because success will never be mine. I heard these lies as a child and tried to compensate by being a very good and hardworking adult. This morphed into finding a spouse who was willing to speak to those hurts over and over again. He was able to see my vulnerability and use those lies to control me.
For the first three decades of my life I have heard most people think I am worthless.
Deep inside I have known this is not true. I accepted Christ when I was a young child and had plenty of other positive influences in my life. Always believing I was one step behind in convincing others, I have worked very hard to make those lies about me not a reality.
In my darkest of days, at my most frustrated points, when I was feeling down and out, those lies would start shouting I was too; lazy to ever be good enough, small minded ever have a full grasp of what I needed to do.
Those lies controlled me.
I strove to live up to standards that were impossible instead of accepting the places that God put me and the character qualities He has blessed me with.
So for me, discovering freedom wasn’t just; getting out of a bad marriage, forgiving parents who were still growing up themselves, or forgiving those in authority who were trying to do the right thing but failed to communicate well.
Forgiveness and moving forward certainly have been part of it, but the reason why I have freedom from those lies now is because I finally chose to believe that I am who God says I am.
He says I’m his child.
He says that I was worth dying for.
He says that I have freedom from all of those lies about myself.
And it is not because I finally earned freedom. It’s not because I did well enough to finally get those labels removed. It’s because he died and took those labels on Himself. He took the punishment of my shame a long time ago and I have been wallowing in mud.
My freedom hasn’t come through getting counseling to shift my thought processes, or because I am free from my humanity. I have discovered freedom because when I am willing to listen to God’s truths about me and freedom is part of that package!
Discovering freedom is so much less about overcoming and so much more about the One who has Overcome.
Christa is a mom of four, an art teacher, a grad student working on her Master’s in Counseling, and a writer. You can read more about her on her blog: @http://christagoesberserk.blogspot.com/
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